Ever have one of those days? Not one of those days where all seems to go wrong; but one of those days where emotions are running high and ideas and future goals are a dim, dim flicker far in the distance? Most ladies, I think get what I'm talking about. Welp, I'm having one of those days. It's been coming for some time now, I believe. Not sure what is causing it except that there has been a year full of major change, I can only see dark lines and wrinkles and frumpiness when I look in the mirror, an overwhelming feeling of tired, and aches and pains that I should be too young for but apparently not. Anyhoo, I decided yesterday that I would get my hair cut and try a new style tomorrow. I called a friend who owns a salon to see if she had any openings. Apparently she must be closed this week because I got no return call from my message on the machine. I have felt on the verge of tears since waking this morning (I do not know why..really I don't). I have a strong and happy marriage. I have an opportunity to serve the Lord in a new ministry in OK. Even though I had to leave a home I loved and give up being near much family, I have determined in my mind and heart to be joyful here and make the best of the given opportunity. My goal in life is for it to have mattered that I was ever born. What better way to accomplish this than to serve the Lord and share God's Word? Right? Right!
Ok, I digress ... I was sitting at the table at noon eating a chicken salad sandwich and just burst into tears! No kidding! I had been waiting for Bob to call to say he was off work (he was supposed to get off early today) and then right when the tears came, he texted and said he was working the whole day. I reasoned that was good so I could find some place to treat myself to a shampoo, cut and style. I actually had the intention of a complete make over, and in my mind was pretty willing to go with whatever this lady recommended to make me look better than when I walked in. ...Barring a pixie cut or blue or pink hair! Get it? I was ready for a change.
The lady though, seemed to pick up that a real big change might not really go over as well with me as I think or with my husband. She gave me a shampoo and a great scalp massage in the process! Then she gave me a similar cut to what I have with some suttle changes. She took two inches off, making it slightly shorter in the back than the front and put in long layers and then gave me side bangs (the biggest change). What I really liked most was that she took much time in showing me how to style it into the beach wave look and how to get the lift if I want it in certain areas. I'm sure if she'd have had another client waiting she may not have taken such time, but God knew I needed some special attention. It doesn't really look much different but I was shown step by step how to do the same look and she told me the cut would also be good straightened or left scrunched and dried naturally. What a great type of cut! After all, don't we ladies like variety and choices?! It is the spice of life!!! hee hee Now, I have more options in styling.
Much of the emotional feelings are gone (tho not completely). I'm very thankful that we are financially better off than 6 months ago and I was able to go and treat myself. I go months between hair cuts --often only going about twice a year. I just trim my own bangs out of my eyes and figure the rest can wait. Bob and I are planning to make changes to get healthier and lose a few pounds in the coming months.
Why are we as people made happy for a moment when we get to buy something for ourselves or do something for our selves? Why does that bring joy? Is it just because we are so carnal, worldly or selfish? What is it about "new to us" that brings a smile? I mean, the whole church was happy and excited about the new flooring in the fellowship hall (that was long overdue!). At the Christmas party, everyone was smiling and excited to see it. Hopefully, spending money or doing something new is not the only thing that brings joy and happiness to us. If it is, then we most assuredly, are shallow people.
I just wondered if anyone else has "One of those days" like I had today. To those of you who follow this blog, thank you for sharing in my life's journey. This blog is certainly an outlet for me not to keep things all bottled up inside. It gives me a voice, a place to express myself. It also, I hope, is a help and encouragement to others as I strive to share and make people think about different topics.
2 comments:
I don't know how I missed your post but somehow just saw it today. I am sorry that you had such a tough day but I am happy that you were able to find someone to do your hair and that you were able to have your spirits lifted. I, too, sometimes have days like that. I really think that sometimes ladies who are in the middle years, experience some hormonal imbalances that causes the emotional roller-coaster days like that. (at least that's what I blame it on) lol
Anyway, I am glad you are feeling somewhat better. The Lord can help us and strengthen us even when we don't know what we need ourselves. Sometimes I find myself praying for help and just at a loss as to what to even pray for. But HE knows what I need and has never failed to be there. Praying for you, sweet friend!
I completely agree to blame hormones! Mine have been amuck since I was 34.
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